Jessie James Decker is getting honest about her mental health.
In a post to Instagram on June 23, the singer detailed her struggles with body image, self-esteem, confidence, and anxiety.
Jessie James Decker Gets Honest About Body Image and Depression in Raw And Emotional Post
“The reason why I want to share this is because I think I got to a place where I was trying to hide my vulnerabilities because if I made everything look great all the time, it would hide my internal struggles,” Jessie wrote. “I have also always felt a duty to make people smile and happy or laugh and always be that bubbly girl. I have a very blessed life…but I have definitely struggled these past couple years.”
Jessie admits how life has been “a little worse lately,” oftentimes finding herself breaking down and crying.
“I’ve been battling some body image issues and when I really think about it, I probably always have,” she shared. “I go from one extreme to being obsessed with working out and being muscular and thin to just giving up and gaining because the food makes me feel better and then ultimately, it’s a cycle that just gets worse again.”
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In addition, she is facing some speedbumps in her career. Earlier this month, Jessie had to postpone several shows after testing positive for COVID-19. And while she continues to reschedule dates for later this summer, the 34-year-old said she is constantly fighting to prove she belongs in the industry
“I’ve also been struggling with the challenges I face in my career,” she wrote. “I’ve been wanting to be a country singer since I was nine years old and sometimes, I feel like I’m constantly in a battle with the rest of the industry to prove to them that I’m not just a TV personality or an influencer because that has outshined my music.”
“As a woman in 2022,” the mom of three continued, “I don’t understand why I can’t have a family, publish books, own a fashion brand, be an influencer, and do TV without being questioned if I take my music career seriously just because I’ve chosen to dream big.”
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After cancelling several shows, Jessie felt that she “let so many people down.” As a result, “it sent me down a spiral again of depression and made me worried no one would want to come once the tour is back up running later this summer.”
Currently, Jessie is working through her trauma and is also receiving support from friends and family including her husband Eric Decker who commented, “Love you!! Your vulnerability is inspiring and beautiful.”
Jessie hopes that by sharing her struggles that she can bridge the gaps with fans in a new way.
“It almost didn’t feel authentic to not share what I’ve been going through,” she said. “I have such a beautiful life and so many blessings, but I still have struggles and need to sit back and work on my mental health. I feel like I try to only post the good sometimes, but I think being open and honest will also help me heal through this. I know I’m not alone. And I wanted you to know you’re not alone too.”