Britney Spears described in a series of voice messages this past weekend just how hurt she’s been since her sons have gone no contact with her.
“With my kids now making the claims that ‘She’s not good enough, she wants attention,'” she said. “Yeah, I do want to be heard, and I’m angry. I kind of subconsciously want to offend people because I’ve been so f****** offended.”
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initially, Britney responded to her son Jayden James, 15, tell-all interview by calling out his lack of respect for her and accusing him of being angry that he’ll stop receiving child support payments from her when he turns 18. She also is a mother to Sean Preston, 16.
Britney added that she now recognizes that she’s really angry with her father Jamie Spears and spoke directly to her sons about how much she continues to care about them.
“I’m so blessed to even call you mine, and I just want you to know I apologize,” she said. “My ignorance in saying no — saying so to you guys, because that was meant for my father.”
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She also spoke on just how painful the conflict with her sons has been, at one point mentioning that they’d blocked her in addition to stopping visits and missing her wedding.
“Since they’ve been gone, I’ve honestly felt like a huge part of me has died,” Britney said.
“Like literally, I have no purpose anymore. They were my joy, they were my everything. I looked forward to seeing them. That was what I lived for.”
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However, she added that this will not stop her from speaking publicly after being denied a voice for so long.
She revealed that she has been meeting weekly with a therapist and is also doing equine therapy to heal from the isolation she experienced during the conservatorship — particularly the time she was forced to spend in a rehab facility. Opening up has always been a struggle for her, she added, describing herself as an introvert despite her life as a performer.
“In my head, it’s really crucial to me to feel like I can share,” Britney said. “If it’s the dumbest thing in the world that I do is share on my Instagram my thoughts, if it’s dumb, so be it, because I honestly feel like it helps me.”